Update

Had a good run in February where I got my work ethics and confidence back. However there were a few distraction where I lost my focus. Now I am trying to get back again.

I am learning now that whatever I focus on, that is who I am! I am starting to believe that I am not "who I am". I am "what I do and what I focus on". If I want to be a good father, I have to focus on it and just do things that makes me a good father. I know it sounds so simple, but this is all it is. Just do things, one by one... Over time, I AM a good father!! Simple yeah?

Another important lesson is "If I cannot change the world, I can change the world I look at it". This is so important. Not everyone will think the way I think. Not everything will happen the way I want it to happen. I can do my best to make things better but if I cannot, I must accept it and try to make the best of it. When things dont go your way and you have tried your best, the best thing to do is to "spin" it so that it gives the best result. A good friend of mine taught me that I should be most grateful for the people who causes me the most pain or grief. Why? Because they are the ones that can teach you most about yourself and about life. You learn most how you should react and learn from life from difficult situation and people.